resolutions.

Well I guess you could say my last couple posts have been quite depressing.... Sorry about that. :3 Anywho, I decided to put on a delayed version of my resolutions. (I know, wow, girl, you are only 15 days late!) Now normal people would be like, I wanna lose weight or I wanna be a better person, and some of my resolutions are the normal 'I want to change' ones, but there are others that are kind of wacky and special that I wanted to share. And you should know by now I'm not normal.

1. Earn trust.
I know, trust isn't easily given. And this past year I know I've lost most people's trust, whether I was angry at them, or just worried about them and told people what was going on. I'm just afraid people won't be able to come to me if they need help if I keep doing this, so that's number one.

2. Join a sport.
Okay, this one is one of those where people who know me will be laughing as they read this number right now, but hey! Maybe I can at least TRY to be athletic, right?

3. Get style.
I'm one of those rare girls that hates shopping, so naturally my wardrobe reflects that hatred. I'm one of those 'T-shirt, jeans and converse' kind of people. Hoping I can change that.

4. Write more often.
It's one of my loves, and I never do it anymore. :(

5. Give guitar another chance.
I sucked. Plain and simple. And I don't want to give up just yet.

Okay now these are the touchy-feely ones soooo be prepared.

6. Find me.
Everyone at school knows who they are. I'm kind of lost at that. Like.... I don't even know what I want to do with my life tomorrow, let alone college! I'm hoping that through writing and music I will be able to find it, but I haven't yet.

7. Inspire people.
Well... this isn't so much inspire, but help. I love when people come to me for advice because it not only gives me a chance to forget about my problems, but I just love being the shoulder that people can lean on when they need it.

8. Stop being so shy.
Ah, it's a trait I've always had, and I've just grown to live with it around people who know me, but I'm afraid people when they just meet me don't want to know more because I'm not my real self.

9. Learn to love myself and others.
This goes without explanation.

10. Be the best I can be.
Okay, you always hear all the people saying that they want to be better, but I don't want to set the bar too high. I'll never be perfect. And I'll never be right for some people. I'll never be so-and-so's best friend, and I'll never be girlfriend material for him, but maybe I'm the perfect best friend for someone else and the perfect girlfriend for that other guy.


This post was just more for my doing that your reading, and if you read it and finished with, "Who cares?" haha nice one and it's okay. And if you finished with "Nice", I think we should be friends. :)

That is all. :)