a poem

there once was a girl
who would light up the room
           when she walked in.
and she wasn't beautiful, but she wasn't ugly
and she wasn't skinny but she wasn't fat
and everyone loved her just that way.
and she would lose herself in music
and everyone watched when she did
             because she was the best at it
and her parents were proud
and she never did anything wrong
             bringing home As every day
and her mother would hang them up
and show them to everyone
             who visited them
and her friends never left her side
and her boyfriend said he loved her
              always and forever,
and her father would take her out
              on father daughter dates
and would say he loved her
              every night before she went to sleep

there once was a girl
who would lock herself
               in her room so she could just be alone
and she wanted to be beautiful
               but couldn't figure out how
and she started taking pills
               so she could be skinny
and maybe someone would notice her
and yet, people still liked her.
and she was still good at music
and everyone would listen politely
                but sigh with boredom
and her parents started fighting
                but still were proud
and her mother glanced at her grades
                because that's what mothers are supposed to do
and her friends whispered around her
                because she wasn't talking much anymore
and her boyfriend started looking at other girls
and her father went out without her
                on father daughter date night
and would get back too late
                to say I love you.

there once was a girl
who didn't even bother
                going home anymore
and she didn't care to be beautiful
                because she knew she never would be
and this time she just didn't eat
                because she didn't have the energy to
and no one seemed to care anymore
and she didn't touch her piano
                because she was never good enough
and no one asked her why she didn't anymore
                because no one cared
and her parents didn't even talk anymore
                to each other or her
and she never showed her grades to her mother
                because they were all failing
and she no longer had any friends
                for they had all moved on
and her boyfriend broke up with her
and started dating someone who was beautiful
and her father was gone for weeks at a time
                 forgetting about dates,
and even his daughter
and she would say I love you
                 to herself every night.


so that's why
one day when she got home
and no one was there
                she took out her old pills
and played the piano one last time
and left a note for her parents
and texted all her old friends goodbye
and finally deleted her old boyfriends contact
                out of her phone
and remembered all the times
                 she went out with her father
and said one last damned I love you to herself
                 in the bathroom
                 because she couldn't make it to her bed this time.



if this sounds like the poem from perks, good. it was supposed to. i just copied the format because it kind of inspired me to write this.