fly or float

To be free
To be completely unaware
To fly

But to be comforted
To be completely safe
To float



So I don't know why these six lines have been in my head all day. I mean, where I am now, I've always kind of felt like I am in a cage- one that's impossible to get out of. All I've wanted to ever do was be the best and do the best. Get out of this hell hole I guess. But I've been sort of weepy lately. Like, writing that poem yesterday. Or even just looking around my room and finding little reminisces of when I was just a kid. If I start flying now, who knows what's possible? Maybe someday I'll soar. But if I start too quickly, will I be skipping over what would be the best moments of my life? I'm conflicted I guess- do I want to grow up, or do I want to be a kid while I can? Do I want to work hard for what I want to happen in the future or do I want to have fun?

Should I fly or float?