only three years.

I think I finally have it all together. I have college visits scheduled, all my stuff for school in two weeks, volunteer jobs and even a real job lined up! So yes, my future is looking bright. Well on paper it's looking bright. But you know how when you have so much stuff on your plate you can't put 110% in everything because that would be impossible- so some things are at about 75% and some are at 80% but then there are the others lacking around 15%. Lately those lacking would be my personality adjustment- the only thing I still hate about myself is that shyness thing you know? I haven't been with my friends much lately, only my best friend and even he's bored with me I think. I used to be stuck in a rut with my future and now I'm stuck in a rut with my present. I don't want to go places- I want to sit around planning how college will be and what kind of activities I'm going to do in the next couple years. But I guess no one gets very far without some friends. So I'll go to the parties and all the hang outs and movie trips but I won't enjoy it. I'll be sitting there, counting down the minutes until I finally leave all these bad people and this hell hole for the beginning of a new me.