relying sucks

I think the hardest thing in the world is needing someone when they don't need you. Sometimes they don't even realize you need them and they just let you walk around aimlessly, following someone who doesn't notice you. I recently went to a dance at my school and this issue was everywhere. Girls trying to get guys to notice them, friends dancing with other people to make their best friends jealous- and no one significant noticed. One of my best friends has a crush on another of my friends. It's hard because at one point I really liked him and he liked me, but I was too stuck on being popular that I never said yes. And now that he doesn't want me, it's sort of like being thrown away. And one of my other best guy friends? He didn't talk to me all night. Don't get me wrong, it was really fun. I just see all of my friends going away and my friends are the only things that keep me sane. When my two best friends start dating, his two former girlfriends, also in my friend group, will be so mad and not talk to him. And my other friend is distancing himself. So what am I going to do without them? Are they so caught up in their petty drama to realize that for the past three years, although they have been awful at times, have been the years that kept me from being alone, from being someone I wasn't? Do they not see those days we used to just talk forever about anything, and make those stupid little inside jokes that no one forgets but wants to right now? I don't just need them, I need all of them together. And I know they need everyone too. Maybe they just haven't realized it yet.