the pusher.

We all achieve to do something, right? I mean, for example, if you want to be a good baseball player, you get yourself out on the field everyday and you keep in shape. Naturally for me, I get a little obsessive at things when I'm trying to practice, but it's still normal. I want to be good at what I do. I kind of have a feeling that by practicing and by joining everything I've pushed away my friends though. They've found fun in others and I just sit home by myself some nights and watch them go out and have fun. I just wish I could be my old self but still achieve things.