for my friend

I start out the conversation,
With 'how was your day's
And 'what's up?'s
Your simple reply,
A little playful 'fighting',
Then I try to remember.
Was there a day I went without you?
And how did I survive?
"I'm always here",
A quick remark to a fickle heart,
A heart with your words tucked away in it,
The questions unanswered,
Constantly running through my head
I need you,
Your little witty sayings,
Your short but perfect advice,
You smiles, your hugs,
Separation from you
Is something I can not handle.
It always happens, though
Those little breaks in friendship,
Different paths,
Different lives,
Walking to our own destination
What if our paths weren't meant to corss again?
What if I'm stuck in this big world without my best friend?
Maybe that's a good thing though
You will have kids, a beautiful wife,
I'll send you a text now and again,
'We should meet up'
But we never will.
So will you promise me?
To never forget me?
To tell your kids the stupid things we did, show them the pictures?
Will you still be my friend in the end?
I don't think I will forget you,
You changed my heart, my mind,
You made me a better person,
You made me, me,
I end the conversation,
With a simple good night,
A 'see you tomorrow' or two,
Hopefully our stupid little conversations always end like that.

zodiacs

Normally I'm not one to believe in superstitions. You saw a ghost? You need a counselor. You believe in magic? You belong in an insane asylum. People create things like magic and ghosts to help them deal with things that they can't without some other being helping them along. I always did have an interest in zodiac signs though. For those of you who don't know what they are, zodiacs are things you are born with. Each one represents about a month of time and whenever you are born, you get that zodiac. Most zodiacs are supposed to be reflective on what kind of personality that person has. Luckily for me, I was born on October 23rd. Some zodiacs say that's Libra. Others say it's Scorpio. So yeah, I'm the freak with the two zodiacs. Naturally on days I have time, I like to look at my horoscope on both zodiacs. They are usually freakily accurate. Characteristically, Libras are like obsessive, to put it lightly. They are described as shy but intelligent, and to be very compassionate, and fear hurting others or hostile situations. Like that is me. But then Scorpios, they are the stubborn ones. They get jealous and easily hurt, and have a really strong emotional strength. So, is it strange that out of all the zodiacs, these are a mixture of me, and I was born between them? Maybe it's just a coincidence, but maybe I should also start believing...

a lifetime

I always have those little lesson learned moments at the end of every year. In 7th grade I learned that I was kidding myself- I would never be popular, and I was right where I needed to be. In 8th grade, I learned that the people who you thought would always be there for you sometimes leave. It may not be the end of the year yet, but this lesson I've learned should carry me through. I used to think having a boyfriend would be the best thing in the world- over everything. I would even compromise myself just to have a certain boy's approval. But last night, sitting in a room with my friends just being myself and having fun, I realized that it's where I'm supposed to be. I'm not meant to be one of those girls who goes around flirting and kissing guys for fun. That's not me. I am someone who can just walk through life with a hand on each side to hold of a friend and enjoy myself. So maybe I don't have a boyfriend, and I turned down the only boy recently who was ever interested in me(even if it was for the wrong reasons), but I have friendship. And friendship lasts a lifetime.